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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I've been talking to some people from work over the last few days. Is it bad to say that sometimes I miss it? Not that I want to go back- but I truly loved the people I work with- and I miss them. Despite the fact that Matt is home and I do have adult interaction, I miss having something to talk about other than the baby. I actually miss the work to. It took awhile, but I found a job I was good at that I truly liked. I wish part time was an option. Part time would be perfect for me I think. I could spend most of my time with the baby, we would have minimal daycare costs, and I would have some time to be a grown up.

But my job doesn't offer that unless I want to go back to retail... which is always an option, but not one I'm keen on taking advantage of. It would mean nights and weekends almost exclusively, and that's not what I'm looking for. It would also mean working basically every holiday- and that's DEFINITELY not kosher.

Going back to school is an option... I've been looking into taking classes to become a sign language interpreter. But that means more money going out instead of money coming in, and once I have the intro classes done, it would mean M-F 8-5 for 2 years... with a long commute since there are no programs close by.

So basically, I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I don't want to give up my seniority and such with my current job to go somewhere else- but I doubt that I'll really be able to find something in line with what I want.

Seriously, this has to be about the most boring post ever... definitely more of a purging of what's on my mind than a trying to actually be entertaining. Sorry about that...but I needed it.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Sad day


We have to get rid of our kitty cat. There are a multitude of things that have led us here- but the two biggies are that she has constant bladder infections and won't use a litter box, and we think Brody is allergic. I'm holding out hope that we can hang on to our other kitty, but I'm not entirely sure yet.

I can't begin to tell you just how upset I am about this. I feel like I should try to put up with the peeing, should try antibiotics yet again... but it's been 4 years, and it hasn't gotten better. And now with the baby, I am not comfortable with her peeing on his stuff- I've become an expert at getting the smell of cat pee out of things, but with him wanting to put things in his mouth, I would feel like I had to throw away everything, and well, we just can't afford to replace all of his toys and clothes, and our clothes, and everything else that he touches.... which is well, everything.

And then there is Brody... I took an online "does your baby have allergies" quiz, and answered yes to almost every question. The main reason I started thinking he might is because he's started getting rashes on his belly when he wears shirts that don't tuck in. But only when he spends a lot of time on the floor, or has actually been playing with the cats... and then he is likely to get a rash on his arms as well. He's also been getting red itchy eyes, and been sneezy a lot lately... so while it is possible that it's just the time of year and such, the cats are a strong possibility.

I am debating asking my parents to keep the other kitty for a week or so, steam all the carpets and furniture, and see how he is then- but for the moment, I can only handle losing one of them... and I'm not sure I can handle that.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Thank Goodness for Carter

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I can't tell you just how much I am starting to love him. I applaud him for coming out and saying what so many of us are thinking. I applaud him for calling the "faith based initiatives" what they are- crap. I applaud him for realizing that calling yourself christian doesn't mean squat when you squander real American values.

Just 609 days left....